Totality of It All

October is here and is by far my favorite month of the year for so many reasons. Usually, I’m the first person to post an October or Pumpkin photo at 12:01 am on October 1st! I’m the Mom that has everyone excited about what spooky fall craft we will do each day. I’m hustling and bustling. I’ve decided to slow down. Take it all in.

I’ve been adjusting to living in Colorado. The state is indescribable. With each day that passes and as we enter new seasons it’s more beautiful than the last. THAT is the easy part. Daily, I’m in awe of this town and this state. I thought nothing could top the beauty of our PNW fall. Boy, was I wrong. In a town this beautiful and so full of color it’s easy to have all the ugliness in the world fade to background.

Until today. Day after day there is a tragedy that strikes. Sometimes closer to home than others. We pray. We help. We offer condolences. We rush to the aid of those we can. Gestures of good will big or small. We help. Then the confusion sets in. The reverberated questions about God begins. How can you praise a God who would allow such tragedy?
I  certainly do not want to minimize pain and suffering. God didn’t allow tragedy. He promises to work all things for the good of those who love him. (Romans 8:28) Honestly, there are things in my personal life I’m still wondering HOW this will work out for the good. I’ve learned in my walk with God, the story eventually unfolds and my answers are given to me.
Let’s look at a verse written by the apostle Paul.
“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.”

-‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭4:17‬‬

Light and momentary troubles? I don’t know if you’re aware but Paul suffered stonings, hunger, imprisonment, homelessness, beatings and far more pain than most of us have to endure. Yet, he looks toward the long term perspective of eternal glory. Wow!

I know in the midst of my own personal tragedies (raise your hand, nod along if this is you) I felt like there was no way there was going to be a smile again, happiness, joy and doubt about the Lord I serve crept in. It was in those times I leaned not on my own understanding (there’s a verse for that too!). Which is incredibly difficult to do! As I think back over the extent of my nearly 38 years I feel much like Paul. I’ve endured far more than anyone ought to. If someone asked me “how has your existence been?”, I couldn’t deny the heartache and tragedy in my life. However, when I put them into context, in light of all God’s outpouring of goodness to me, those tragedies aren’t even worth comparing with the eternity of blessings that will be revealed to us.
In my times of heartbreak and tragedy I had two options. Run away from God or turn to God. Sometimes, I did both. Confused, suffering and full of pain. Many times! I chose over and over, to seek Him. Not all of us benefit from suffering and learn from it. The same suffering that causes one person to become bitter and turn away from God can cause another person to turn to God. To compassionately help another who is in the midst of their tragedy. Those who are hurt and in pain. Those whom are suffering.
I started ‘This Is My Walk’ because I wanted to share with you that suffering and death do not have the last word anymore. Through His own suffering and death He deprived us of that ultimate power over us all. I want to share with you that God has the last word. Keep faith and trust in Him.
With that, I’ll ask you, can I pray with you? Can I pray for you?
Be love. Walk in love. Choose love.
XO- Crissy

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